Before my journey ends..

When I cheat u, when I fail
It hurts.
Something is dead inside
Soul, I don't even have that
I traded it for my desire
But something is dead, yet it bleeds
I want to cry, cry loud
I want to tell you,
I want to let it go,  let it go forever.

But for the last deed,
deed done, cannot be undone
I felt like there is Nothing remaining inside
Even that dead thing jumped off the cliff
It is the hollow me and my expanding darkness
It looms large over my very existence
Cannot see beyond it.

What is my redemption?
Tell me O hurt soul
Tell me O my love
Unaware of my fall
Unaware of my betrayal
You continue to breath within me
The only pure part left inside

Would you walk with me
One last time
Would you embrace me
One last time
Would you listen to me
Hear what I want to say
Without hurting yourself
Promise to be the listening ear
And let me confess

One last time
I want to say,  how I felt
How broken I am
One last time I want to breath
One last time I want to live you
One last time let me feel complete
One last time, walk the walk with me
Before my journey ends

Nothing can ever make it go

If it matters, I don't care,

"if it matters to you?"

That's what I care.

Life is a blessing,

with you in there.

Not as a stranger sitting by me,

"With you really in there"

That's what I care.

Do you?

Would you ever?

Be part of my stupidity some day

That's same me, who met you

That's same me, who is there with you

You say grow up

I say why?

Let's be ageless

I feel this way

But what makes you unsure?

Don't remain mum, Just Say!

This gives me pain?

Yes, it does, immense one

But this connects me to you

Can I be indifferent?

No!

How so painful, 

but I want to remain connected

At times I think let go,

I search for escape

but that never gives me solace

Even in your denial, 

my happiness lies

Even if it suffocates,

my breath lies

Someday, just be the one I knew

the one I met, the one I long for

Someday let me breath,

let me feel the joy again

What I have for you is ageless

No even you cannot undo it

nothing can ever make it go

till the last one, I will breath and live this way,

Yes would surely would wait for you to say

Someday...

Pathfinder….Goodbye

Pathfinder….Goodbye

Sometimes it’s hard to say goodbye,
But let’s give a sincere try
For old time sake,
For the long chitchat break
For the beautiful memories down the lane of friendship
For I don’t want to lose it because of a flip
My friend…Goodbye

For the good and bad in me
For the happy and sad in me
For the friend and foe in me
You stood by, you held me during tough times
Atop the tight rope, you were my only hope
Come what may, you stood like a wall,
But maybe this got to end once in for all
My hope…….Goodbye

The extra steps we walked,
the common road ends from here
You got to go
My new journey starts right here
I am not sure where to go,
but I must figure out
and someday I will surely find the way
But for this quest, I must say
My pathfinder….Goodbye

Burn and Vanish

I am falling for you, I am falling again
Drenched in sweet pain, pierce though my heart
I can listen to a silent cry, but no witnesses
A drama unfolding, well scripted,
well executed, I lived entirity
My hands are bruised, yet holding on hard

Defeated by fate, defeated by my rules,
I bow down, say no to my heart
Shout O dead voice, crush the deaf ears
Let the grass burn and let the air feel red
let the sun burn, burn in it's own glory
I won't let it shine upon me
I won't let it hurt my wounds

Oh! mighty Arjuna, fight for me
aim at the Sun. Burst O harsh one
Let the sky burn too, was accomplice to you
My rainbow is dead, colors phase out in fumes
no longer the rain is soothing, dries before touching ground.
Let the land parch, it should feel what eyes can feel
Dare O drop don't you fall, fallen souls are not mourned.

Let me burn along with you,
Let me feel every bit of what pain I built
let me sink, yet live to feel that death
I failed to rise,  failed again!

Say this to you

I have to say this to you

Life was beautiful, shining and bright

Blue skies, flocks around n sunshine in my heart

Maybe I never realized what that meant

Maybe you never told it to me

I have to say this to you

Passion, emotions I felt so wow,

Or let me say I felt pretty inside

Then, why? Why you had to go?

Why can’t you stay along?

Why can’t we be we………..

Can I run away? No I can’t

Maybe yes, but Can I live this way?

No I can’t

No touch, yet I can feel your soul,

No locks, yet I can feel your warmth

Now that you are gone

I have to say this to you

Now that we are away

I have to say this to you

I can’t hold it any more,

and I must say, this is how I feel for you.