Silence

Speak up...
I know you are dying to say
Pore your heart out
All unsaid, unheard pains
Want to share..since long

Happiness and miseries..
All deep inside, intermingled,
need to sort out,
Bring back the happiness
Yes...speak up..

ease your pain

We tread the path
Holding hands
With twinkle in eyes
Smiling all the way

Even now treading the same path
Still holding hands
With blank eyes
Bearing pain all the way

Perhaps it’s time
To bifurcate the path
End your strife
withdraw my hand
and ease your pain...

This Women's Day, celebrating womanhood.

From little bud
to a big tree
From little princess to
a caring mom
I grow to nurture.

I do cry, but I am not weak
I want care, but I give solace
Like to be protected, but I raise lives
Emotions are my assets, and each tear makes me strong.

Any moment is incomplete without me,
I transform house to home
love, care, devotion, protection
I give all.
I am woman.

This Women's Day, celebrating womanhood.
Cheers to us!

For a while

It lasted for a while
and then got washed away
love was in eyes
now only tears stay

it touched for a while
and now only scars are here
your touch was in my palms
now only blisters are there...

Are u there?

My words were bigger than me,
you listened to what I said,
you left it unheard what's unsaid,
surrounded by the miseries
and bruised with the pain
a silent cry inside
tears roll hidden behind mane…

It’s trying time
And you chose to stay apart
We were bonded in a strong bond
Then how come separate hearts?

I still hope.......

Ah! It’s the fateful day
My world was shattered,
He chose to end your stay!

The moment I opened my eyes
All was gone,
And I hoped against hope
To hear you again
To live in the virtual world
That it’s just a nightmare
When I will wake up
You will be there

I still hope.......

Thought 2...

9.An Indian dream comes to an end, as new one takes over....A never ending saga of triumph of hope...

10.It's high time we start thinking...but about what??? "Peanut Brains"

11.No wonder you appear lost. It’s a maze called life!!!

12.Gosh I am fat...will surely start workout tomorrow (Should start the good work by having Last Pizza..Sob Sob)... ROFL

13.Close your eyes and the world looks so beautiful....Ask a blind man...your opinion will change.

14.The day I stopped chase away my fear, it stopped pursuing me...now we date ones in a blue moon...

15. Fallback taste the defeat and then rise again to face the glory...

16.Life is not just about standing in front of a queue it's also about at time standing at the last place...otherwise you may end up standing alone while rest of the queue behind you shifts to another place.

17.Embracing the destiny yet not submitting to it

18.My death was not your victory; it was your loss...now you don’t have an enemy to fight with, to defeat and stand victorious...

19.Courage is an inherent quality and without it we are just a spineless creature...

20.I was happy to have you, I am even happier to let you go. This is the first time I see you smiling.

Your little girl...

Survival is difficult
I am in middle of a tussle
Whom to choose, whom to leave
Do I have a choice?
No I don’t want a choice
Want you to be on my side
The way you always were
Since you held me in your arms
A small plum tot...

Ever since you treated me
as your doll, your kid
But then I grew up
And now it’s time to part
I know you are not sure
Scared for me, in strange lands
Want the best for me
But afraid of the worst it can be

You never thought of me to leave
Even in your strangest of dream
But it’s true and will gleam
Yes I am in love and there is he,
But this is destiny, will happen,
But without your blessing it can’t be
As for me both are water and air
Can I survive without anyone of you here?

Take it that I have to go,
But still I will be your doll
Yes someone will be important to me
But can’t take your place at all
Trust him, he will treat me well
And will hold me if I fell
Will care for me, more then all
Because he know I am your doll

I know what you want
All you want is safe hands
To hold your little girl
Not to treat me as dust,
But care for me as a pearl
I know nothing can make you trust
And even you are not unjust
But just believe for once
Support me to embrace my fate
Trust me he won’t be a nightmare
But your daughter’s soul mate

Close your eyes

watching this orgy

Surprised yet again!
calm of the sea ever tempting
invited...
I venture in deep blue,
ignored the memories
of its last plunder,
robbed my motives
dumped me on thy shore half dead...

Yet again, knowingly oblivious
To thy uncertain nature,
Off to voyage.
Wooden boat with a white sail
Riding high in good faith
befriend the crusader,
merciless and brutal...

Inviting calm of thy,
I dared to venture far
Shores blurred,
now vanished completely.
Sight could catch just the mighty blue...

Calm grew deep inside me
In tune to placid water
surrendered my oars, and laid down.
Watched virgin clouds,
flirt with sun.
White Greek clouds...

Eyes submitted too...
felt the calmness touch me,
and grew within.
Ah! A life in few moments
attracts to venture in the sea.
unabashed and carefree...

thy mood can change,
once ‘white’ clouds
next dark demons.
conspire with the storm
to shower havoc, coax the waves
to rise high, with a roar
fanatic attempt to kiss eve

Sea watching this orgy,
Will raise thy brows
To snatch back thy keep,
pull waves back in.
A war between the wildest
lovers, breaching the sanctity
to mark thy impression
muddle and try to conquer the waves

lost in my calm
caught in middle of the war
I may end up losing all
My calm, faith and innocence
Or witness the biggest of tussles
still emerge unhurt and braver

all is scripted deep inside
too involved in calm
I chose to keep eyes closed
live every bit of it…carefree...

Surrounded by Shadows of my own instability and fears

Surprised by my frequency to surpass all records of mood swings... I often find it a challenge to judge my own course. Instability is somewhat an integral part of my nature, be it the case of any trade, relation or emotion…It is hard to bank upon my on logics or reasons, about which I was so sure just few moments back…Although this makes it hard for others to judge me or map my thoughts, irony is even I am as oblivious about it as anyone else.

It’s hard to hold my ground and stand tall amidst this grave dilemma…People have tried to define it for me...They call it childish, confused, carefree attitude and at most of the occasions irresponsible behavior. I am unable to judge my own tone while dealing with others; it can be a case of utter sarcasm or may become cynical at times. But deep inside I know that’s something I never meant, never ever launched the campaign to belittle someone, as I do not hate them.

Shadows of my own instability and fears keep me at toe all the time. I never know how I may react, and what mood will commandeer my thought process. You can easily teach or make someone learn when they are willing to and have already not developed a specific tendency, even it is bit difficult yet easily achievable to change those who do have developed a set of tendencies but yes, are pretty much willing to adapt or change.

My case is complex, with the different tendencies I have adopted and while someone tries to help me rectify the issue all of a sudden they will realize I am no long in that mode but switched to an even verse form. Although I want to unlearn the screwed up things and then relearn the correct way, but slave to my own ideals or misconceptions I find it almost impossible. Leave alone an attempt to apply corrective measures. It is hard for anyone to even approach me with any such preposition.

I do know whatever mindset I have, is not entirely incorrect. My ideals are not completely wrong but the way I approach and apply these may turn out to be faulty. Repair is possible when one is unaware where exactly the problem lies and also uncertain about the exact nature of it. Hence in my case it is malignant and without any precedent…hard to judge where the actual seed is sown, what may cure it. It is almost a lost cause to find a cure when you don’t know where the root of illness lies and even unable to judge the nature of it.

Maze

Surrounded by my fears,
And guided by my vice,
Unable to see the simplicity
And incapable of bearing complexity
I wander in the maze, built by me for me...

Beauty and charm was there but,
lost in my quest to figure out grey...
Spring was the season surrounding me
Lost by advent of May...

Complexity grew so much,
It engulfed every strand of faith
Lost the way in front of me,
Left it all on fate

Unable to see what I want,
Not ready to take what others think
I built a concrete cocoon of my thought
And suffocated my soul inside it...

If the dead could speak!

Only if the dead could speak!
I would have risen to say
You forced me into death
Your love fooled me
Your trust betrayed me
Your reasons left me blank
Your lust reduced me to nothing

Still if space was given,
I could have lived, Survived the suffering.
But even this was not granted
Your breath chocked me to the verge
And cramped in your narrow thoughts,
I succumbed one day...

But are you to be blamed?
If I could have said it
Pored my heart and told you how I fee
Let you know, no longer the magic exists,
No longer I expect you to turn the,
Pumpkin into chariot...

Said that Spark was gone long back
The moment you stopped reading my eyes
I should have told you all...
Ah! Wish I did...

What a wonderful stay

What a wonderful stay
I learnt, u made way for me to grow,
you held the light high to make the path glow
Committed errors, repeated them,
still you patted on my back,
telling “I trust you”
I learnt to win, never to lose,
learnt that all is achievable
learnt to apply myself what may come

I gained courage from you,
in the moments of despair
I garnered knowledge from you,
in the blank moments
I learnt to trust and believe
with you holding my hand in narrow lane.

It's time to fly away,
the nest you built was cozy and I felt safe
but it's time to discover new lands
I am not a brat, just a kid learning to grow up
it's not a revolt..but application of your thought

Let me go as I will learn to be safe,
let me go as your ideals are deep in me
Let me go to apply it
where I am out of the comfort zone
I am away from your safe hands
learning to follow my mentors’ path
learning to be like you...

Hold my faith

I have lost the hope
the world is no more familiar
afraid to be recognized by anyone
plan to run away from all known..
Submitted to the fear…

would those mine will ever understand
and try to figure out what's wrong?
Will leave me like a stranger
to save themselves, from my miseries
Or try to solve my problems
and embrace me within them

Faith which is lost
can be garnered again,
Holding some ones finger,
Get support from those shoulders
pat on back to console
caressing the head
to tell it's fine, don't be scared
a gentle kiss on forehead
yes we are with you always......

I wait to hold that finger,
tight hug and pat, touch of that hand,
a kiss on my forehead
to rekindle the spark for life
to shine again, and getting the strength back
to restore the faith..........