Drifting from your righteousness

When drifting from your righteousness

I seek within me,

The very sense of what is to be upheld

and what to leave behind.

Moronic and insane believes,

I shrug off all.

Layer by layer, peel-off what is dead.

I start to admire what is beneath

wrapped, which no one relates to, 

it was left behind in the process of growing up.

Simple and straight, no veil

real and true faces, faces forgotten,

even the mirror fails to recall,

I constantly keep drifting from your righteousness

To stay connected with these true faces.

Before my journey ends..

When I cheat u, when I fail
It hurts.
Something is dead inside
Soul, I don't even have that
I traded it for my desire
But something is dead, yet it bleeds
I want to cry, cry loud
I want to tell you,
I want to let it go,  let it go forever.

But for the last deed,
deed done, cannot be undone
I felt like there is Nothing remaining inside
Even that dead thing jumped off the cliff
It is the hollow me and my expanding darkness
It looms large over my very existence
Cannot see beyond it.

What is my redemption?
Tell me O hurt soul
Tell me O my love
Unaware of my fall
Unaware of my betrayal
You continue to breath within me
The only pure part left inside

Would you walk with me
One last time
Would you embrace me
One last time
Would you listen to me
Hear what I want to say
Without hurting yourself
Promise to be the listening ear
And let me confess

One last time
I want to say,  how I felt
How broken I am
One last time I want to breath
One last time I want to live you
One last time let me feel complete
One last time, walk the walk with me
Before my journey ends

Nothing can ever make it go

If it matters, I don't care,

"if it matters to you?"

That's what I care.

Life is a blessing,

with you in there.

Not as a stranger sitting by me,

"With you really in there"

That's what I care.

Do you?

Would you ever?

Be part of my stupidity some day

That's same me, who met you

That's same me, who is there with you

You say grow up

I say why?

Let's be ageless

I feel this way

But what makes you unsure?

Don't remain mum, Just Say!

This gives me pain?

Yes, it does, immense one

But this connects me to you

Can I be indifferent?

No!

How so painful, 

but I want to remain connected

At times I think let go,

I search for escape

but that never gives me solace

Even in your denial, 

my happiness lies

Even if it suffocates,

my breath lies

Someday, just be the one I knew

the one I met, the one I long for

Someday let me breath,

let me feel the joy again

What I have for you is ageless

No even you cannot undo it

nothing can ever make it go

till the last one, I will breath and live this way,

Yes would surely would wait for you to say

Someday...

Pathfinder….Goodbye

Pathfinder….Goodbye

Sometimes it’s hard to say goodbye,
But let’s give a sincere try
For old time sake,
For the long chitchat break
For the beautiful memories down the lane of friendship
For I don’t want to lose it because of a flip
My friend…Goodbye

For the good and bad in me
For the happy and sad in me
For the friend and foe in me
You stood by, you held me during tough times
Atop the tight rope, you were my only hope
Come what may, you stood like a wall,
But maybe this got to end once in for all
My hope…….Goodbye

The extra steps we walked,
the common road ends from here
You got to go
My new journey starts right here
I am not sure where to go,
but I must figure out
and someday I will surely find the way
But for this quest, I must say
My pathfinder….Goodbye

Burn and Vanish

I am falling for you, I am falling again
Drenched in sweet pain, pierce though my heart
I can listen to a silent cry, but no witnesses
A drama unfolding, well scripted,
well executed, I lived entirity
My hands are bruised, yet holding on hard

Defeated by fate, defeated by my rules,
I bow down, say no to my heart
Shout O dead voice, crush the deaf ears
Let the grass burn and let the air feel red
let the sun burn, burn in it's own glory
I won't let it shine upon me
I won't let it hurt my wounds

Oh! mighty Arjuna, fight for me
aim at the Sun. Burst O harsh one
Let the sky burn too, was accomplice to you
My rainbow is dead, colors phase out in fumes
no longer the rain is soothing, dries before touching ground.
Let the land parch, it should feel what eyes can feel
Dare O drop don't you fall, fallen souls are not mourned.

Let me burn along with you,
Let me feel every bit of what pain I built
let me sink, yet live to feel that death
I failed to rise,  failed again!

Say this to you

I have to say this to you

Life was beautiful, shining and bright

Blue skies, flocks around n sunshine in my heart

Maybe I never realized what that meant

Maybe you never told it to me

I have to say this to you

Passion, emotions I felt so wow,

Or let me say I felt pretty inside

Then, why? Why you had to go?

Why can’t you stay along?

Why can’t we be we………..

Can I run away? No I can’t

Maybe yes, but Can I live this way?

No I can’t

No touch, yet I can feel your soul,

No locks, yet I can feel your warmth

Now that you are gone

I have to say this to you

Now that we are away

I have to say this to you

I can’t hold it any more,

and I must say, this is how I feel for you.

By your side (Song)

no matter what it may, 
I will be by your side

don't you ever feel, I am not there
be it far or near,
be it day or night
I will be by your side

There would be good times or bad
lows and highs, many heated moments
or even goodbyes
by end of the day,
nothing is going to stay
and i will be by your side

I know life is tricky,
I am not as strong as you are,
to stand tall amid the tide
but with arms in arms
I will hold on
and I will be by your side

trust me, it is true
trust me, will you?
o o o..no matter what it may.
I will be by your side...

Shining Gold

A golden flight, I want to grow

Grow bigger and fly higher

Brighter and shiner, precious and revered

Like shining gold

Grow beyond imagination, grabbing all attention

The sparkle, the glitter mesmerising all

Dare you come near, dare you touch me

I am beyond, I am superior

Like Shining gold

I grow so big, unable to see my own ground

I fly so high; lost the beautiful things I earlier found

I am on top, but I am alone

I want to bend in joy with the morning breeze

Alas! I can’t

Like shining gold

My bundle of joy

A tiny little doll, you were within me,
but I found you that day,
happiness unbound, such big I can't even say

Little hands moving here and there
big eyes trying to recon me
and your lips murmuring unsaid words
I can still feel your first touch
your tender fingers kissing my skin, and i felt blessed.


Yes, you are the best of me
my reason to live, love and laugh
to see you grow each day,
each day new story you weave around me
endless talk about you

I want to spend each moment with you,
see you doing naughty stuff
your babble, your cribbing
trying to show anger then trying to bribe me
bites n kisses, hugs and slaps, all you give
all gives joy...

sweet, spicy, crisp, munchy
yummy, mumma's bundle of Joy.....

Dream voyage

Dream voyage,
to an unknown land
it was calm and serene..
sea quite and there stood I
smelling the wind,
bit salty bit chilled

leaning by the edge, I imagined my flight
wings broad open, trying to break free
leave behind the fear of failure
fear that I will fall

I stood - undecided, yet excited
should I or not, talking to the wind
what if I fall, it said "what if you fly"
It went on "afraid of death? don't be
afraid of height? don't be
sky is waving to you,
sea is raising thy arms
to hold you, catch the moment you fall
don't be afraid sore high
high till you unite with sky"

I  listened, took thy words..
with each word, faith grew
closing my eyes, with believe
took a sudden leap into destiny
hoping to fly, to touch the sky

I felt flying, flying effortlessly
whispered the wind "open your eyes,
see the dream come true"
In a reluctant effort, I peeped
with half opened eyes..

Oh! I was flying, together with the wind..
Dream or reality, difficult to figure out
yes I flew, to undertake the dream voyage....

I have Lost You

I have lost you,
and lost the love bonding us...
Silence prevails in place of talks
Sighs overshadowed laugh & smile...

The pain is deep rooted,
the cry is piercing hard...
clueless we stand,
trying to dig what's wrong?

no longer you find the me,
you have loved...
no longer I find the you,
who loved me...

each days passes,
and shoves us apart
apart and away,
soaked in our share of pain....

I Bleed

I bleed...

Torn apart, bruised
thread is severed,
blade cuts in further

I scream...

Unheard, unsaid, agony
Tormented soul,
soaked in tears or blood?

I plea...

No hand coming to rescue,
No heart with compassion,
Alone, struggling to hold on
Failing badly

STILL

I survive...

dead mass moving around,
looted, dead, dark inside
Soul perished in this act

DO

I survive?

Tic toc tic toc

Tic toc tic toc
O! why the hell you walk
Toc tic toc tic
Feel like beating you with stick

Don’t you know the pain it inflicts
or you are oblivious to such feat
Take my advice,mam please don’t repeat
Or we plot something against your feet!

How are you, where are you
OMG, I would make you shoo
Next time I hear you use that tone,
In person or over the phone

I don’t have any personal agenda here
But I promise I wont stand any near
Next time I hear that tic toc
Or than kiddish rattling tone

By-
Someone ;)

Silence

Speak up...
I know you are dying to say
Pore your heart out
All unsaid, unheard pains
Want to share..since long

Happiness and miseries..
All deep inside, intermingled,
need to sort out,
Bring back the happiness
Yes...speak up..

ease your pain

We tread the path
Holding hands
With twinkle in eyes
Smiling all the way

Even now treading the same path
Still holding hands
With blank eyes
Bearing pain all the way

Perhaps it’s time
To bifurcate the path
End your strife
withdraw my hand
and ease your pain...